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Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Election?
Got quite fed up with Facebook nowadays and decided to stick to Instagram because there's too many people talking about elections, and I don't like the fact that they make fun of the government the way it is now.
Probably will be scolded by a million people if i write these on my status, but true that - I couldn't be less bothered about the elections.

 Knowing that I should be one of the .. errrrr Malaysian that go against the government, I personally think the Prime Minister should bear all the responsibilities of the corrupted countries today.

 The people, the OTHER MINISTERS ( those you think are clean) might also be involved.

 Politics were/are/will never be clean.

 Why bother?

 Some people don't understand the fact that some state needs the help of the central government to rise, i.e. smaller town like terengganu.

 Without all the money from central government, where's development?
On the other hand, I think the Prime Minister should step down because he had enough from the people, and if anything, why do you want to stay if your people hate you?
Im pretty sure in this corrupted politics you have got all you wanted- so why not run and enjoy your good life somewhere else?

 Staying longer isn't going to make your people appreciate ur presence.

 All in all, it's good for the PM to step down for now, but to vote for the opposition? I won't be so certain just yet.

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Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Things to Accomplish.





Hello! went to a Dinner & Dance event for the last time (i think this is the 5th year). Went to saloon to get my hair done, but didn't really liked it so I loosen it up a bit. It looks like that (arrow up to picture) that night.
Eye make up smudges a little it became it bit heavy on my eyes. But I reckon it was my dress too because the dress was too soft and girly.

 The eye make up was fine and perfect for the after-party though, where I wore a red burgundy-ish Corset Dress.

 Coming to a bit of updates in life, I have been 'spring clean' my clothes and it really does takes me forever to get it done. Also because I'm also selling it dirt cheap on ebay(instead of throwing it then can benefit other people and Myself loll) so it makes it much slowerrrrrr

 made a decision to join the gym downstairs for 3months.
mmm.. After so long, gotta admit it's very hard to pick up that habit again. I am going to the gym later, but I wonder how much I can do before I got swirled into some sienness and give up.

 it was because I feel really fat..(and of course I am much fatter, by 4kgs la) now.
I was 48kg before and now 52kg. Summore got people tell me kenot tell.
That's because Summer isn't here yet. (but soon)

 I m hoping that I can manage to lose around 2kg by summer althoughh 4 will be ideal. The minimum la I mean is 2. and don't know since when- I avoid stepping on weighing scale now so I don't really know my weight now. T_T

 That should be it for now.. needs to continue to spring clean and gym layta. Wish me luck!
=D


PS: another excessive dog abuse case. They captured the face of the dog. I'm speechless. It makes me think that-in this realistic world, only being powerful (in dog's case fierce) then they can protect urself. Doing all the goods, in dog's case- loving human and trusting human will bring u NO WHERE except DEATH.
Human, why do you do that to them? :(
Is animal being created by god to being USED by human and dump them aside after?



God Bless those in Boston.
xx



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Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Lost.
I was told to forget about the past, and remember what it has taught me.

So I did.

And I worked,to make a change.

And then it proves me wrong.

And then I was told that everything happened for a reason.

I don't know. 

I'm confused and worried and I have not told everyone about it.





What should I do?    
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Friday, March 29, 2013

can shopping or not?
Sometimes I really, really, genuinely confused with what #stitchboi thinks of my shopping.

Well,sometimes he seems really.... ignorant at my shopping habits( read as veryyyyy not supportive) but sometimes when he free he will start mumbling and babbling.

BUT.

strange point comes along.

When he sees something online that he thinks I like- He buy it for me.
he went shopping in hongkong-he bought total of 7pieces of clothes for me and a studded flat.

And then he encourages me to get a timberland boots for myself which I have only worn ONCE so far.

And then, i was cheeky-ly shopping on asos.com and try to hide from him (refused to click the 'basket' window because he's right next to me)

and then he asked : what is there in the basket? let me see?

and then I nervously said: Nolah, just add into the basket but haven't decide if I want to buy it. (when I said this I was expecting a big time ''stop buying u have got enuff clothes thing'' BUT to my surprise he said : '' quite nice . Buy it lah I LIKE IT ''



????????????????????????????



can someone explains this to me?

when is the right thing/right time to buy ? LOL

one thing for sure:: when I sell enough clothes on ebay to clear up my wardrobe!!!



Till then. Byesss (will upload pics soonnnn cos Im blogging from his laptop o.o )  
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明年妳还爱我吗？




明年妳还爱我吗？

梁静茹结婚了。

证婚人是李宗盛，伴娘是戴佩妮，蔡健雅。

玛莎没有收到婚礼邀请，他说他不会去。

她和玛莎就这样形同陌路了。

梁静茹最终也没有和玛莎在一起。

那阵子，刘烨结婚了。

他在婚礼前，把自己关起来哭了好长时间。

曾经说著：“这辈子最幸福的事，就是娶谢娜，只要她愿意嫁给我，我现在就可以娶她“ 的人就这样和另外一个女人结婚了。

刘烨说，他一辈子都不会忘了谢娜。

可是这样的话听著都会觉得伤感。

刘烨最终也没有和谢娜在一起。

那个说著非谢娜不娶的刘烨，也结婚了，娶了一个法国女人。

看著谢娜的自传裡有一部分是说她和刘烨的。

6年的感情让她们彼此都成长了不少。

谢娜说他们在大家都不看好的时候坚强的在一起，却在大家都对他们祝福的时候分开了。

6年！

那个说著非李大齐不嫁的周迅，也单身了。

不知道是为什么，只知道，他们5年的感情，会成为他们彼此生命中最精彩的时光。

5年！

之前辛晓琪在演唱会上，再次唱响那首“领悟“时，哭的如此伤心，痛彻心扉。

辛晓琪最终也没有和爱的人在一起，想必是真的领悟了。

我们，一直都是在输给时间。

所以说，这年头，还有什么能让我们动心，让我们相信呢。

陈昇曾做过件很煽情的事。

他提前一年预售了自己演唱会的门票，仅限情侣购买，一人的价格可以获得两个席位。

但是，一份情侣券分为男生券和女生券。

恋人双方各自保存属于自己的那张券，一年后，两张券合在一起才能奏效。

票当然卖得很快，也许这个是恋人双方证明自己爱情的方式吧。

“我们要在一起一辈子呢。”

“一年，算什么。”

……

这场演唱会的名字叫做：明年你还爱我吗？

听似很简单的疑问句，实现起来，却被赤裸裸的现实击败。

到了第二年，陈昇专设的情侣席位，果然空了好多位子。

他面对著那一个个空板凳，脸上带著怪异的歉意，唱了最后一首歌：把悲伤留给自己

去年我们曾牵手走过很多地方，在车站拥抱，一起看电影，往彼此的嘴巴里塞零食和饮料，一起幻想明年的这个时候，甚至是很多很多年以后，我们在干嘛，要干嘛。

可是感情的脆弱我们谁也想不到。

这一秒幸福，下一秒就可以崩溃。

恋情，崩盘起来，往往太措手不及。

再多的甜言蜜语，累积起来也敌不过分手两个字。

世界上有太多的悲哀。

曾经多么骄傲的要一起幸福一辈子，到头来却剩下自己。

不想再奢望什么了，一个人静静的躲在角落裡，欣赏你们的幸福。

夜的黑暗与我做伴，躲在被窝裡，真的体会到了思念的痛，痛却不能说...

其实自己不是那么矫情的，其实难过不想告诉任何人的...

渐渐发现，痛，就自己忍著。

即使说，也无从说起...

只想问，你能爱我多久...

相恋多年的人们就这样形同陌路，彼此生活。

或许，他们并不是不爱对方了，而是不能给对方各自要的生活。

应该相信，他们或许依然爱著对方。

只是，一个不懂得怎么去爱，一个相爱却无能为力。

生活就是这样，最终相守到老的人，也许并不是那个曾经许下山盟海誓，承诺白头偕老，暗自发誓这辈子只爱她一个的人。

终究，终究时间会带走一切。

到底是什么让我们鬆开了彼此的手？
到底是什么让我们放弃了自己，放弃了对方？

会一直说真的没什么，然后又对著别人的故事沉默。

表面终究会归于平静，只是内心的波涛汹涌却不为人知。

只有自己才知道，谁是自己真正爱的那个人，谁又是伤了自己的那个人。

所以最后的最后，当我们都有了彼此的归属，你只能是我记忆中模糊地剪影而已。

一个女人突然决绝的跟相爱五年的男友分了手，闪电般嫁了他人。

她说她要结婚，她实在等不起了，而他虽然爱她，却根本没有一点这方面的意思。

过了几年，男人也结婚了。

那个新娘其实未必比她出色多少，或者这一次他的爱有多么深，只不过她出现的时机实在太好了，刚刚好在他萌生倦意想安定下来的时候。

于是，不需要什么更好的理由了，她来得正是时候，那么，就是她了。

其实我们寻寻觅觅了那么久，遍嚐每一次爱情的甜蜜与艰辛，而最后选择的爱人，不过就是在我们心意动时，经过身边的那一个。

什么青梅竹马，什么心有灵犀，什么一见锺情，都不过是些锦上添花的藉口，

时间才是冥冥中一切的主宰。

回首往事的时候，想起那些如流星般划过生命的爱情，我们常常会把彼此的错过归咎为缘分。

其实说到底，缘分是那么虚幻抽象的一个概念，

真正影响我们的，往往就是那一时三刻相遇与相爱的时机。

男女之间的交往，充满了犹疑忐忑的不确定与欲言又止的矜持，一个小小的变数，就可以完全改变选择的方向。

如果你出现的早一点，也许她就不会和另一个人十指紧扣;又或者相遇的再晚一点，晚到两个人在各自的爱情经历中慢慢学会了包容和体谅，善待和妥协。

在你最美丽的时候，你遇见了谁？
在你深爱一个人的时候，她又陪在谁身边？
在你心灵最脆弱的时候，又是谁在与她同行

爱情到底给了你多少时间，去相遇和分离，去选择和后悔？

重温“大话西游”看到紫霞深爱至尊宝的时候，他心心念念的寻找他的白晶晶，而当他终于看到了她留在心裡的那一滴泪，却已经失去了选择的权利。

每一次看到他潜入另一个人的身体，去偿还前世欠她的一句承诺，再看他在夕阳下孤独的走远，总是情不自禁的想要落泪。

不是不心动，不是不后悔，但已经没有时间，再去相拥。

如果爱一个人而无法在一起，相爱却无法在适当的时间相遇，如果你爱了，却爱不对时间，除了珍藏那一滴心底的泪，无言的走远，你又能有什么选择？

时间的荒野，没有早一步也没有晚一步，

于千万人之中，去邂逅自己的爱人，那是太难得的缘分，

更多的时候，我们只是在彼此不断的错过，错过了杨花飘飞的春，又错过了枫叶瑟索的秋，

直到漫天白雪，年华不再，

在一次次的心酸感叹之后，才能终于了解。

即使真挚，即使亲密，即使两个人都已是心有戚戚，我们的爱，依然需要时间来成全和考验。

这世界有著太多这样那样的限制与隐秘的禁忌，又有太多难以预测的变故和身不由己的离离合合，一个转身，也许就已经一辈子错过。

多年以后，才会参透所有的争取和努力，都抵不过命运开的一个玩笑。

上帝在云端只眨了一眨眼，所有的结局，就都已经完全改变......

后记：
20岁的时候爱上他的帅气，
22岁离开他因为他的孩子气
然后你遇到了35岁的人，
没有阳光帅气的外表，却拥有成熟和稳重让你安心的一切。
你怎样任性耍赖35的他都会让著你，
你怎样挥霍发洩35的他都会罩著你。
你眼中的35是他长大的模样，35眼中的你是他年轻时的她。
35曾经像22的他一样孩子气，然后她离开了35
22的他35岁的时候也会拥有一个22岁的女孩，事情总是这样循环往复
十年后当这个男孩蜕变成一个2235男人，
他要感谢你，你的离开让他学会了成熟。

感触：
听说你结婚了，听说你有孩子了，听说你们过的很开心
多好的事情，我为你开心，自己却有点后悔。
如果新郎是我，你在婚礼上是不是更美。
多少年没见了，我却还是会记得你，
多少年过去了，你却依然在我的心裡。

我们为自己设了个圈，自己绕阿绕的，总也出不了这个圈。

明年，你还爱我么？






  got this from a sharing page in facebook but thought it's one of the most meaningful article which describes what I have been thinking. Copied and paste it here because I want to keep it for my own reading in the future, and also to share with any visible /invisible soul who're still reading this blog.



xx

Raych 16.59 
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Thursday, March 28, 2013

When we..
It strikes me a little yesterday when stitchboi was choosing his specialist course in the future.
He's intending to apply for plastics and some other surgery post which I think - is good for his/our future.

But and then it strikes me-how long does he has to get there?
and when he's achieving his goal? What would/should I be doing?
I was told that we cannot get both of it-the relationship and the career at the same time.

As much as I don't want to believe this, I think I have seen more than half of my friends who chosen career over their relationship once they started working.

Mommy Queen used to tell me I'm ambitious and stubborn. Hence, If i want something enough I will get it done. It's not the matter of can or not, it's always the matter of want or not.
And first point I proved her right by losing around 16kgs from my body and transformed from a fat girl who my high school friends made fun off- to a girl who has a choice to choose who to date because I have choices(back then, not until I have stitchboi lol)

And then I proved my mother right once again when i get through my LLB despite not being the best student. and then I gloriously slipped away my First Class distinction in my Masters in Law - so close but I graduated gloriously(pun intended) with a high 2.1-commendation.

and then I got into bar school. bar school taught me so well on how harsh the reality could be outside. And then also at this point, the relationship got a bit shaky and the problem got solved and then......... We were better than we were before.

And then Stitchboi started working, earning his own money and able to feed me on my daily needs. (meaning foods etcs -excluding shoppings if you ever wonder)

and then I was allowed to take a year off ma year after bptc complaining about how much Bar school has exhausted me. I think I just became lazier and lazier. Nothing more.

Yesterday, I talked to stitchboi about him going back to hongkong to work as a specialist cos it will be much easier to have your specialist father behind you to build up misc connections you need in HK.

And then I asked: Where do I go then? 
he answered: I don't know. after 2seconds pauses-HK LA!
I asked again: What do I do then?
He answered again: Housewife. Stay at home and wait for me to come home. and bonds with my parents.

I ANSWERED: NO WAY because I cannot.



And then it strikes my mind a little.
Where is this relationship heading? where are we both heading?

It's strange how when we see kids and dogs and family it seems like we assumed that we both are chained to marriage (like we will marry each other la) and then talk about him being a great daddy and so and so.

I am a little bit lost to be honest. But I hope it ended up in a good way.




On the other hand, I have gained like 4-5kgs now I am around 52kgs-ish.
I need to get back to 48 before the summer comes so I will have quite lots of work out and food diet to do in April and May and June. which is...................... 

ahh... tiring.


lol.




Goodbye for now.
  


xx
                         
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